Thursday, September 15, 2011

What I Have Learned all these Years

From the beginning.

Getting here wasn't easy.
The sky is blue and sun warm.
I like to laugh.
Big people make decisions for my life.. not sure I like that.
I like things that crunch.
Kitties don't like to swim.
Snow,wind, rain, thunder and Santa are blessings from the sky.
There are things called germs that make me sick.
Other people's homes seem more comfortable.
I want to be one of those women who sell soap on TV.
I love the woods, school, recess.
I run faster than the boys.
I like to sing.
Giving to others makes them happy, I like that.
There is magic that happens when leaves change color.
Music stirs my feet, makes me want to jump, twirl and sing.
Everyone has pain.
I like boys.
I can't wait till I am grown.
Oooh I make mistakes, I say mean things. I am frightened and sad.
I don't have many friends.
Home is a way-station for unhappy people.
I have much anxiety.
I must get away.
There is so much beauty, heartache, suffering in the world.
There is a man named Jesus who people rely on.
There is a voice that tells me things, that guides me.
Prayers are answered.
Sex is not what my mother told me.
Family doesn't mean they like or love you.
A big beautiful home does not mean happiness.
I'm in trouble.
I like telling stories, I don't want to lie so I will do it on Stage.
Everybody has problems.
It takes hard work to  find the boogieman who lurks in the shadows.
It takes hard work to find the truth.
I must tell the truth.
I want to be loved. I might not know how to love.
I know how to care for others, maybe too well.
There is nothing better than thundering up a hill on my horse.
I can take care of myself.
People are mostly loving, mostly.
There is a voice inside that tells me things, guides me. My prayers are answered.
I am a woman who sells soap on TV.
When someone says they love you, it means something different.
It means everything, it means nothing.
Loyalty was a virtue, now it seems like a convenience.
Americans are spoiled.
Americans are blessed.
The dead know what we are doing.
Marriage does not always mean forever.
There are unseen forces that care for us.
Difficult things must be learned.
Deep emotional wounds must be processed or pain is not understood.
The dead talk back.
We can hear them.
I am capable of many things.
Everyone needs help.
Organized religion keeps people feeling special.
History shows us what "special" means in the name of God.
God needs a different PR agent.
There is a voice  that guides me, tells me things for others.
Prayers are answered.
Everyone is intuitive.
People are amazing.
Life is incredible.
There are massive numbers of UFOs surrounding our planet.
There are unidentified structures built on both sides of the moon.
We are blinded until it is time to see.
Being a parent is a mind blowing job.
Not having children is a lesson my soul needed.
Some days that makes me sad.
I don't sell soap on TV any more.
Love comes in all forms.
Judgment is ego. Ego is fear.
We are children practicing to be adults.
God is a personal guidance system.
The process of forgiveness is life.
I know nothing.
I would not trade one moment of all the pain and suffering.
I could not forget the beauty of light upon the earth,
or the sweetness of the leaving.
I wake to remember.
I live to love.
My life is extraordinary.
There is a voice that tells me things for others.
Prayers are answered.
Pain is exquisite when it has merit.
I feel blessed.
I love you.